So I put something on so you can’t see my love handles.

I love those shorts and the shirt. I jut wish I looked better in it.

About me. I am your typical 19 year old broke ass college student. I weigh 214 on a good day. I eat junk food, drink Coke and my exercise consists of walking to my car, walking to my classes. Really nothing. I work in a snack bar, so food and pop is always available to me. I don’t remember when I really gained weight. I used to play sports all the time. All in elementary school I played soccer, fifth grade was basketball, the summers between my middle school years I played slow pitch softball, my freshman and sophomore year was fast pitch softball and junior and senior year I bowled. I still bowl now. I hold down a job. But on January I was at my highest known weight, 228. I couldn’t believe that. I wanted to cry. I don’t really know what happened. I’ve been fat as long as I can remember. I hate going shopping. I want to cry in the dressing rooms all the time. I get so frustrated when I go shopping. I want to look good.  I want to attract people. Everyone knows looks do a part in getting the guy, it can’t just be personality. The thing I hate the most about my body is my love handles. I look like I have an inner tube around my waste when I wear anything. I hate it so fucking much. I just want to lose it. I want to lose this flat tire belly. I want to wear a swimsuit without being scared of what people will think. I don’t want to hide in hoodys all winter. I want to be able to be proud of myself. I hate my fat arms, I want to wear tank tops. I want to be skinny.

I HATE MY LEGS.

I hate that you can see my stretchmarks. :( Ugh. I reblogged this from my other tumblr. I really wish I could show off my belly button. Ugh.

I love tumblr for this. I can communicate with others who are going through the same struggles as me. I want you all to know that I am here for you and you can all talk to me about anything. I wish all of you good luck on your weight loss journey and thank you for the congrats on my weigh in. It really means a lot when people like the post or congratulate me.

Now I am off to do grown up stuff for the day. :(

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

213. just 13 pounds away from my first goal weight. and 15 pounds from where I started.

I am happy with my success so far.

i was iwanttobeskinny- but i think this way I can find more people in my weight range if my url is 230to140.

which means I owe my room mate 100$ in quarters which sucks.

and I need to find a new thing to stick too. I was thinking of asking you guys for help with creating a shopping list. I know I want to stick to a diet. I need to lose weight. I am thinking keeping track of calories. Anyone have an advice?

All ive eaten today was a steak and hot wings.

I need carbs.

I need something.

My head hurts.